I’m feeling incredibly antsy today. There’s a paper that i should be writing, but i can’t seem to get the words out. The outline has been done since Saturday, but i can’t seem to fill it in. i’m finding myself more and more in worry-mode and less in peace and serenity mode. So this morning as soon as i dropped little man off at school i located the nearest meeting and went. It helped. For a minute. i’ve recited the Serenity Prayer more times today than i thought possible. i’ve meditated. i’ve prayed. I don’t know what’s going on!! Depression? Anxiety? both? it feels more like anxiety. Whatever it is, it’s debilitating and i just want it to go away. Every day is a struggle. i’m maintaining a positive attitude and i’m not beating myself up over it. i know that it’s temporary. i’m chalking it up to the process of change. i no longer want to react and respond the way the old me did, but i don’t quite feel comfortable in the “new” me’s skin yet. i’m still in my cocoon, but i can feel the changes and it is unpleasant — even though i know the outcome will be beautiful and amazing.